My hearts holder...

You've made me cry,
You've made me smile,
You've made me feel like I wanted to die
but now here you are making me feel
as good as i can feel, this smile is just for you
I want you to know this to be true,


Where my heart has ached,
you took a bandage and have shown me that you are not fake.
as we dance in the rain,
the only light from coming from lightning,
we look into one another's eyes
feeling bliss and relaxed
this was a surprise
to find you out here
lost and searching,
not only for where you belong
but also where I belong


This is just for you,
my secret savior ,
my hearts holder.

Possessive Thoughts

This is my darkened cry, 

My unholy scream, 

My evil whispers in your mind, 

This obsession is your possession , 

My thoughts take control of you 

until you collapse under the weight of my minds shadow.

You now obey me,

As i command you to bare witness

to this desecration of honesty

Your tears will fuel my certainty.

As the blood drips

from my fingertips,

I whisper a dangerous lie.

"I love you"

As Death Takes You

What can i say? You're going to fade away….

the penalty has been wrought,

the punishment has been dealt,

once you're gone, what will happen to those you leave behind,

i swear that i love you, but what can I do,

this world is cruel and now its taking you…

Life is cruel , but not only to you

perhaps you will be able to rest in peace

while the rest of us mourn and greif,

we wish you the best, we wish you well

in your afterlife where death shall now

forever elude you.

One day we shall join you, 

till then watch over us.

when we arrive greet us warmly

and let happiness replace the sadness that once was.

An Unending Darkness

I look up at the sky as i hear your screams pouring down on me

as silence falls behind,

I've lost it all, my heart and soul,

I stare at empty space only to see you who I no longer have ,

I turn and attempt to run away,

only to fall off the edge of a cliff,

my decent swift and unending,

I cannot see the bottom,

the sides are getting further away until it's just myself in an infinity of darkness,

no longer falling, no longer seeing,

Only being enveloped by my darkness...

What becomes of Anger

My soul is screaming, burning up from the inside,I just can't take it anymore,

This time is the last time I take shit from you, I'll run to the ends of the earth

Just to be alone for a while, but mark my words when I return you better be prepared to to face hell,

as I unleash my fury upon all we know, there is no ending to hatred in this life that we live,

Lonely lies come together to form false truths in our eyes,

till we die from the pain of suffering in loneliness and we take it upon our deceased to cure our living curse, send the blame to others worldwide for our shit before we even look at ourselves in the shattered mirrors, because we are afraid to see our own shattered souls staring back at us through the cracks in the glass, this is the beauty we call pain, death will always be more true to you than life, simply because a dead man doesn't lie! Its true that I'm feeling fucking insane, but there is something bothering me in the back of my mind that i just cannot seem to place. Its as if i belong in another time and space, don't feel left out just because I don't think of you, you have never known me , not even from the start, now hear me ... I am pain incarnate.

Lost in Darkness

I feel like I'm slipping away from reality,

From everything that I care for,

all I seem to see is darkness and insanity,

My eyes are wide open yet I still cannot see

the way home from where I roam,

i feel the darkness taking me over,

desires unfulfilled and growing stronger,

I may not choose to run or hide

yet i quiver here in fear of what may come this way

I listen intently for the noise that I'll never hear,

silence surrounds me as I stumble away 

unknowingly being watched by them,

I can feel them although i don't know what or where they are

I try to run from that which i cannot see

Yet are they there to haunt me, or are they reflections of myself

I'm no longer sure if I am the real me, as i turn to face another mirror

I slip and fall, I look up and see

the end of everything in my own eyes,

i have found myself in this darkness I now call home....

I Wonder

Life rushes by me as I stand on the sidewalk,

watching everything in a blur, I forget to breathe ,

I turn and impale myself upon the lies and deciet...

as I lay bleeding I think of only one thing,

the peace in life that one will never truly have...

I want to scream at the world to show my anger,

I want to cover my face to hide my sadness,

I want to face danger to cover my fear...

As a failure

I'm a failure in my own eyes, what am I in yours?

Is there a shred of hope left for me?

If so show me, maybe I need the guidance,

or maybe just maybe I need to take a chance ,

there is a silver lining that blocks me and strays me from my path...

I've fallen inlove with my darkness,

as blood spills from unseen wounds,

I rip my heart out and stitch the wound closed feeling only bliss...